I feel like I’m in a weird place (life-wise…physically, East TX is just plain weird). There’s a lot of question marks in my life at the moment… That’s what happens when you accept an interim position on the other side of the country. So I feel like I’m hanging on for dear life most of the time, but I’m also kind of okay with that. Which is weirding me out because two years ago this would have killed me.

I guess I’ve just realized that I am in the right field and know that career-wise, I may not know the exact path I will take, but I know the general idea and I’m totally happy with that. Yes, there are days when I don’t want to wake up and go to work, but I never regret it. The bad days are usually good too. I get frustrated a lot. I’m still not completely confortable/confident about everything (which is to be expected a month into a job that you had no formal training for), but I feel good about the decisions I make and actually really love that I can have more intelligent conversations with my supervisor since I’m the only HD he supervises that is master’s-level. And he doesn’t seem to be annoyed by my incessant questioning yet. We’ll see how long this lasts since he just moved into the office next to me.

I don’t know. I really don’t know how to say what I’m feeling, other than it’s good. I miss my family and friends like woah, but generally, I am in a fantastic place right now (other than having been sick for a week and a half). It’s exciting to me that even with all this…change in my life, I’m so content. I guess because I never thought it would actually happen for me. But I believe they say that hindsight is twenty-twenty, and it’s strange to look back and see things so clearly and yet different than they were at the time.

I don’t think this actually makes any sense to anyone but me, but for once in my life, that’s okay. I’m good. And that’s all that matters.