November 2011
1 post
I woke up an hour before my alarm goes off after going to bed at 1am and am so. incredibly. angry. right now. I know some of the reasons, but I’m so taken aback my own self because I never wake up angry. Hell, I rarely get angry.
I have loved my time in TX so far, and really, I have never felt like I could be myself anywhere but here, but now? I’m starting to get people telling me...
October 2011
2 posts
Okay. I need to get this out. I LOVE my job. Like seriously, it’s pretty awesome. I love my students, it’s challenging, and (most of the time) I look forward to it. But does it have it’s frustrating moments?
Hell yes.
I have not had internet in my office for a full week now. Almost everything I do is on the computer and needs an internet connection. Thankfully, I have my...
In new places or situations, I tend to take the role of quiet observer before figuring out how I can fit into the already existing place. And when this happens, it usually takes people by surprise when I finally decide to grace them with the me that I tend to hide at first. So imagine my own surprise that I don’t feel like I have to do that here, that I don’t want to, and that I have...
September 2011
7 posts
I feel like I’m in a weird place (life-wise…physically, East TX is just plain weird). There’s a lot of question marks in my life at the moment… That’s what happens when you accept an interim position on the other side of the country. So I feel like I’m hanging on for dear life most of the time, but I’m also kind of okay with that. Which is weirding me out...
Life lately.
7:00am: Alarm goes off. snooze.
7:09am: Alarm goes off. snooze.
7:18am: Alarm goes off. snooze.
7:27am: Alarm goes off. open eyes and glare at alarm.
7:30am: Alarm goes off. concede to waking up.
7:32am: Get up and start day. shower, dress, think about breakfast, pack bag for day.
8:55am: Decide which of my three buildings to visit second. the one I live in is always first by technicality....
One reason that's not strange: it's 1:04am and I...
I told Bestest earlier today [technically yesterday], that I hadn’t cried since I moved to Texas so I knew when it happened, it would be a big one. And while I’m not necessarily “crying,” there is tear juice leaking out of my eye and I find the reasons behind it strange. (To clarify, not crying the “big one”… at least not yet.)
I’m perusing FB when...
I think it’s weird that I’m not finding it weird to not be a student this year. For the past 21 years, I have always been a student and this is the first year I’m not defining myself as that. Perhaps it’s because I have had little to no time to comprehend this fact, but I totally thought it would be weirder for me than it has been (which has been not weird at all so far).
...
August 2011
11 posts
The power you have is like a current dragging me deeper into the ocean, away from the safe space I’ve made for myself since last time. But without fail, one word and I’m dragged away- my feet pulled out from under me back into the unknowing, back into the shame and doubt that came before. So please. For my sake, stop it. Know when to leave it well enough alone.
I do.
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Weird dream about country singers, dinosaurs and...
Had a dream last night that I was at a concert. Blake Shelton was performing with Miranda Lambert and he brings out this huge toy dinosaur on stage. He tells the audience that the dinosaur needs a name and people start shouting names out. This is when I discover that I’m like two people from the front and start shouting a name (I wish I could remember it because it was awesome and...
Insomnia
It’s 3:49am and I’m still awake. I’ve always had trouble turning my brain off at will, but tonight, it’s especially hard. My mind is whirring and turning and trying to figure out what my answer is to the question of “What’s next?”
Senior year of college was rough. Ask anyone that I interacted with at all that year, and I’m sure they can tell you....
I still can't figure this one out...
I had a dream last night that started with me looking for a new makeup brush and ended with me flying a helicopter on a search and rescue mission. I have no idea how these go together into one dream. I also didn’t know that I can apparently fly a helicopter very well.
Dear Bestest,
On Facebook just now, I saw a picture of a bridal party. The bridesmaids were wearing black dresses with long red gloves. When the time comes for shenanigans such as these to happen, please never make me wear gloves, I beg of you. They look horrendous on just about everyone (Please see Exhibits A and B, below). I thank you in advance for your consideration.
Love, Amy
Exhibit A:
Exhibit B:...
File this under things I never thought I'd hear...
“Doogie Howser, you’re not only a sexual aggressor; you’re a bully.”
July 2011
10 posts
Beyond crappy day.
My reactions to Deathly Hallows part 2:
flyawaylitttttlebirds:
katherinealvers:
Ron and Hermione’s kiss:
Fred, Lupin, and Tonks:
“Not my daughter, you bitch!”:
Snape and Lily as kids:
Snape holding Lily:
Neville killing Nagini:
“Always”:
Narcissa lying to Voldemort about Harry being dead:
Voldemort’s death:
19 years later:
End credits:
Walking out of the theater:
completely accurate.
A little...
This made me giggle...
…and think of Bestest.
I’m in an irrationally bad mood right now. Today can suck it.
“I guess if you don’t jump, you’ll never know if you can fly.”
– Miranda Lambert
Is this real life?
I’m transcribing interviews with military veterans and to say it has been an enlightening experience is an understatement. I have definitely learned things that I never would have before, and it has provided me insight that I can and will use as a professional (if I ever score that ever-elusive first job, of course). I am bothered, though, by one man’s continual statement that...
June 2011
8 posts
http://twiceshy.bitedaily.com/2011/02/should-you-sh... →
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...like a comet pulled from orbit...
I wrote this a couple days and thought I would finally post it…
I’ve felt off all day because I realized something that I’ve known but have been pushing out of my mind for a while. I’ve been set that my job search would not be geographically limited and specifically chose not to even look at positions in the Northeast. If it was South/West of Pennsylvania, I would look at...
Seriously, what is up with my dreams lately?
Usually when I sleep and wake up I don’t remember my dreams. Very rarely would I ever wake up and remember specifics about them, and even if I did, it would end up being vague details that usually made no sense. Compared to Bestest, my dream world was a desert while hers was a theme park.
So imagine my surprise when in the last week or so I’ve had a vivid dream that I remembered each...
Dear Bestest,
You suck because you reminded me about stumbleupon and now I haven’t done anything except hit the stumble button.
BUT. I think I found a bible of sorts to follow: here
Watching Serentity because I’m unemployed and I can.
“Sometimes people have feelings. I’m referrin’ here to people.”
“I’m a leaf on the wind. Watch how I soar.”
“I’m a leaf on the wind. I’m a leaf on the wind.”
“What does that even mean?!”
“I’m a leaf on the wind.”
edited 6/5:
watching...
The final words of a life chapter and the...
I’ve wanted to write a post about the whole graduation thing for a while. I tried a few times and I’d write a sentence or two, reread it and determine that I didn’t know what I was talking about- whatever I was writing didn’t feel right or true, and so I’d cancel out and go on with my life.
I think I finally have thoughts about everything, although I’m not...
May 2011
5 posts
I hate to post things I want, but I want this. →
I had a visit from Angela's crackhead sandman...
Ange and I were going to a skydiving place… in California. As we’re walking to the building, she keeps talking about how angry she is because she didn’t have her camera with her. We get to the place- a giant warehouse-type building in a field and all the workers are wearing purple. I’m guessing that was their uniform, but it was mildly creepy. So we go inside and these...
Take 2: Day 30- An amazing moment you never want...
For all I went through that year, I loved every moment of that day even more.
April 2011
24 posts
Take 2: Day 29- Describe where you live
I live in a small, studio apartment that is literally ALL WHITE, located above the kitchen of a family’s home. I have my own entrance which is up a narrow, steep staircase and my keyhole is upside down, but I absolutely love it.
First of all, the family who owns/lives in the house are literally the nicest people in the entire world. I sooooo lucked out when I moved in here.
Second, it...
Take 2: Day 28- Describe a moment when you've been...
I feel like this is such a downer prompt. “Let’s get you to talk about a time that either made you sad, mad, or both! YAY!”
There’s lots of times when I’ve been let down- I have high expectations for not only myself, but those who I work with as well. Because of this, there’s a long list of things that I have expected to happen or expected of people that never...
Take 2: Day 27- Something you're looking forward...
Take 2: Day 26- Your favo(u)rite film and why you...
I hate having to choose favorites of most anything because it changes depending on my mood, or who I’m with, etc. So instead, here’s a list of movies that I could watch over and over again:
Sweet November
The Mighty Ducks (1 & 2, sometimes 3, but it’s not as good)
The Bourne Triology. Love me some Matt Damon.
Father of the Bride 1 & 2 (you cannot not watch...
Take 2: Day 25- What are you afraid of?